tell me truly

what i just want to know is:
why?
why am i so selfish?  why am i always tired? why am i so scared of confrontation? why am i so bad at taking responsibilities? why do i spend all my time on facebook? why do i still feel too young to be leaving home? why are mushrooms so disgusting to me? why can't i ever be 100% creative? why do i get so emotionally invested? why am i so awkward? why don't adults laugh? why am i so obsessed with road trips and russians and snow on my eyelashes? why have i stopped making new friends? why are my hands so small? why do people hate? why not savor? why do i want to grow my hair out? why do i love irony?  why did i tell him those things i only tell the closest ones? why can i move one eye independent of the other? why do i wish the seasons rotated daily? why am i so lackadaisical? why do i have such a cumbersome vocabulary that i can barely speak my ideas? why do i love and hate choir so much? why do i explicitly refuse to flirt? why do people think just as much about their enemies as they do about people they love? why do i think i'm better than some people? why do i keep stupid things secret? why can't i be a friend to acquaintances and turn some friends into acquaintances? why do i like native americans and accordians so much? why didn't i get asked to prom? why do i speak english? why am i so hopelessly and offensively distracted? why am i such a bad example? why do people avoid cemetaries? why don't people put fireworks in chimneys on the fourth of july? why is counterfeit love cheap and real love impossible to find? why wouldn't everyone be able to tell the difference if that is the case? why am i so bad at math? why do i insist on correcting everyone's grammar? why do my eyes change color? why is there war? why is rap considered music?
why can't i find an answer to any of these questions?!

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